A few years ago, there was a night where I felt very, very lonely. In an attempt to do something, I hopped into the car and drove down to Borders with the intention of just browsing. Before calling it a night, and not feeling any better, I swung by the poetry section and looked through the Bukowski books. While looking, I found it quite fitting to find a collection entitled You Get so Alone at Times that it Just Makes Sense.
So, for the second time in my life, I turned to a book of Bukowski poems for comfort, understanding, and, hopefully, peace. Here are some of the poems from this collection.
friends within the darkness
I can remember starving in a
small room in a strange city
shades pulled down, listening to
I was young I was so young that it hurt like a knife
because there was no alternative except to hide as long
as possible –
not in a self-pity but with dismay at my limited chance:
trying to connect.
the old composers – Mozart, Bach, Beethoven,
Brahms were the only ones who spoke to me and
they were dead.
finally, starved and beaten, I had to go into
the streets to be interviewed for low-paying and
by strange men behind desks
men would take my hours
piss on them.
now I work for the editors the readers the
but still hang around and drink with
Mozart, Bach, Brahms, and the
sometimes all we need to be able to continue alone
are the dead
rattling the walls
that close us in.
drive through hell
the people are weary, unhappy and frustrated, the people are
bitter and vengeful, the people are deluded and fearful, the
people are angry and uninventive
and I drive among them on the freeway as they project
what is left of themselves in the manner of their driving –
some more hateful, more thwarted than others –
some don’t like to be passed, some attempt, to keep others
– some attempt to block lane changes
– some hate cars of the newer, more expensive model
– others in these cars hate the older cars.
the freeway is a circus of cheap and petty emotions, it’s
humanity on the move, most of them coming from some place
hated and going to another place they hate just as much or
the freeways are a lesson in what we have become and
most of the crashes and deaths are the collision
of incomplete beings, of pitiful and demented
when I drive the freeways I see the soul of humanity of
my city and it’s ugly, ugly, ugly: the living have choked the